save the environment peeps. its important

im hurting. i really am. when no ones around, i often find myself crying for no reason in particular. what am i doing to myself. what have you done to me. you probably hate me by now and we most probably are not even friends anymore right nowww. i kinda missed blogging and the blogosphere, but since you dont read and practically no one actually does these days i've made this decision. where are you now? what could you be doing? god i sound geekily sentinemtal omg this is not right. im not drunk. no, havent been drinking, since february to be exact. the month i finally realised you arent gonna be around anymore. and brought a replacement into the miserable life. have been living pretty much as a puppet since then. listening to this oddly really yesterday song on my brother's itunes, chan siu chun's "chui siu jee gak" LOL cantonese acronyms, what dumb lalafied culture. i guess its jsut another of those times of the years where people just feel lost, confused about who are they and what they want. i wonder we'd still get all these weird PERIODs when we're older. i mean, i'm 17, turning 18 in another 3 months. is that young? maybe. there are still so much that i wanna explore. LOVE is just an unnecessary holdback for a person with wild dreams kan? haha, self-comforting dont mind me. music is really a great remedy for broken hearteds. not that my heart is broken, thats too nerdy to admit. =.= wtf. spm will be over about 45 dayyssss! AWESOMEE. she asked me whether im excited for the states. i said im not. im actually not sure at all, im really excited about being there, the place we have been watching in movies and cartoons and drama series and heard songs about. i mean like, AMERICA. but also, i despise flights!!!!!! HATE BEING ON AEROPLANES. and the us is 30 hours of aeroplane away from homeee! darn that dumb brother for being there. i dont talk about this around friends, cos very conscious that they'll think that im tryna show anything off. cos its my 2nd trip abroad this year. uk was 14 hours away it already made me felt like a hell hole. we took emirates, AND I WATCHED ALL THE MOVIES THEY HAD FOR their inflight entertainment schedule LOL. so anyways, i feel better now, after chattering on cyberspace in some unknown dimension HAHAH. sad to think that no one cares about anything anymore.

imma bee imma bee, imma imma imma bee.

the funniest thing happened. (nolah not funny at all just trying to be a little extra metaphoric =.=) bumped in to dr hew during lunch yesterday, and he recognized me and walked over to tell me to eat more vegetable and wished me luck for spm, omg he remembers what form im in!?. (this is the exact moment you should all laugh, yes yes yes)


anyways,
my blog is ending up like twitter.



im blue if i was green i would die, if i was green i would die, if i was green i would die.

its only another 3 months and we'll all be freeeeeeeeeeeee, HANG ON IT THERE! spm is just like any other exams we have in school, only difference is that it covers all the chapters and there wont be any leaked info and the results will affect 98% on our futures, WOW AINT THAT SOOTHING TO READ!.

note to self : you're such a sarcastic bee.

joe jonas is gay,

see! I FREAKING SWEAR TO GOD JOE JONAS IS GAY. seriously. funny gay man.hahahahhaa.so funnnnyyyyyyyyyyy. and gay.



anyways, i shud be studying for trials.

alam!

alam! 

damn cute haha. and a little gay, but still cute. wonder what he sees when he touches his own stomach, his intestines? his eating history? lol , lame. 

and his  real name is cute too. anding indrawani. lol. picture stolen from his facebook.. 

missing ghost alreaddyyy! theyd better come out with season 3 wth!

okaaay. life has been good so far. very tiring year it has been. 

iu is over and im really happy about it. feedbacks are quite extreme, some really liked it and some just hated it, so lol whatever, its not like i'm gonna have the chance to do it all over again, even if i do have the chance i wouldn't lol! choir party coming up! we worked out the storyline already, just have to trust their acting skills hehehe. wokay, not much up lately.

ghost season 3 bloopers!

nobody's home.

a video we made on the first day of terms break last month LOL.

its harder to swim against the flow, there are prices to pay.

hoping to get done with iu soon. and hopefully everything is gonna be okay. am i excited? of course i am, its something i've dreamed about, its an ambition and im so near to accomplishing it. but i'm even excited about getting done with all the drama. maybe its just not worth it, losing so much and gaining so little. the sense of accomplishment i've anticipated is not here, maybe not yet.

the message i forward to everyone after pengetua's rejection (which was more like shoo-ing me back into class and not giving me any sort of chance to explain)...

"hey guys, bad news. pengetua rejected my proposal for iu. but i'll do it ayways, legal or not. i totally understand if anyone of you dont wanna join this project cos there'll be risks to take. so whos with me?"

within 10 minutes, my phone vibrated so many times. inbox was lagging.

i was grateful.

i really was.

11 yeses, 2 nos.

then the nos reduced to one, which was good news.

and i was still grateful. i am still grateful.

there is no hate inside of me. just confusion.

everything comes with a price tag nowadays, even friendship.

remembering mj - now in trend!

its funny how some bloody lalas think its cool its some kinda trend to act like they know Michael Jackson and miss him so much after his death.

questions to all pathetic lalas that think "remembering mj" is cool :

1. how many mj songs have you heard? - i've only heard a few. 
2. did you know abt his reasons of having plastic surgery and why he bleached his skin white BEFORE he died and everyone start pitying him for his tragic and sudden death? - no, i thought he wanted to be white so white people would love him more.
3. did you know how charitable mj was BEFORE he died? - no. i did not give a shit about mj. 

seriously. before he died, all people care about is his child molesting case and all the bad things that people think he did. (at least i did, and if lalas still wanna deny that go ahead lol, or maybe they didnt ever heard of mj before his death)and after he died, everyone starts being compassionate and people who only knew who mj really was after he died starts acting like they have been mj's biggest fan since 1000b.c.

i think its fine to feel bad and its not too late to start knowing mj. (well lol, that would never be me) but just stop following dumb trends. 

i admit he was a great performer. and him dying is a shocking news. 

i wonder if this "mourning trend" happened too years ago when elvis died. shallow. 

tau tau je lah, siapa lala-lala tuh. 

just a lil sumsum. choir nats + pissa camp.

havent been in school for 2 weeks, missing out on alot, but had a great getaway.

choir nationals was awesome. as always. but this is my very last year in choir, wahsheh 5 whole years of my sec school life spent just like that. 4 times going to nationals with different people. this is one thick lump of memory i'll  never be able to get rid of. haha. so anyways, the journey to johore was damned long.. we had 3 bungalows.. breakfast and dinner is sent to out doorsteps, pn. mid and pn nej had their eyes half opened and didnt really say anything to whatever we did. which was unusual, they just stayed in their bungalow the 3 days while we went craazy in the bungalow next door. =x

their antics.

er. speechless.

house party that goes on every night.

jeremy!

tgh pakai baju prs tu, teringat siapa yah?

small kid's fate. 

spin the bottle version of truth or dare.

oh boy, 

it was uglyyyy. 

the team. =)

pictures stolen from facebook.

if you're really interested - 

xt's album 1

xt's album 2

nicole's album 1

nicole's album 2

xinghui's album

there are about 500 pictures, man man lai kay.

then me, xt and jeremy went off to rompin for PiSSA's camp.

it was okaay. not exceptionally memorable, well there was the part where me and xt had to bunk in at huiying's room cos our room was occupied by something/someone/our bffs. LOL. 

and guess what, we made 27 videos with the flip during our 4 days trip. wth. 

the hoodie gang in action during lecture.

them hoodie people. 

after lecture.

bahah.

 

cardigan loner.

sin chan! xD

the real story behind the hoodies.

watermelonnnn. lol xt was that bored she personalized all our name tagss.

i seriously ,sincerely, dengan hati yang telus dan ikhlas, do not know what does "yumi" means.

hmmm.

we picked starfish! (question : starfish got plural wan anot.? starfishes? LOL)

adele and the smart gang made this! montage of small to big to retarded starfish.

electrocuted hair. haha

they had this sand scultpure contest . hahaa, we had to make the yayasan pahang logo. they made me project manager! (watch too much of the apprentice haha) i just had to draw the outline of the sculpture and order them around. bahahahahaha. i did not ask for it.

we won 2nd place with this!

hahaha. me and atin chibi =D

jeremy going thru xt's bag while she was dead asleep lol.

see hes wearing her shades and her colourful buttonny bangle. 

ok lah. thats kinda all. 

IU IU IU IU IU =D

I.U Night Of Interact Club With Support From Rotary Club of Kuantan.

Place : Shahzan Inn
Date : 19th July 2009
Time : 6.30 p.m to 11.30 p.m
Dress Code : Semi-formal
Price : RM 40
Theme : Thriller

The theme 'Thriller' is a tribute to the late Michael Jackson. 'Thriller' was his best-selling album.

BTW, we're not doing it under SABS. Our sponsoring club, Rotary Club of Kuantan, has agreed to make this a joint project with us. So, NO TEACHERS, CAPRICE, crazy dance performances from SUDC and Se7en, cheerleading team from HuaiYi's school in KL, Raxief Maula's fashion show, bands from SMKAA and SABS and a dance floor.

You guys can enjoy 50% off Maroon haircuts with each purchased ticket! =D

Contact us for more info :

Evelyn 0169231701

Keegan 0129081881

May-Jean 0179529928

Mon Yie 0169385828

Man Houw 0169627129

Navin Armo 0169861549

or view this facebook event link

and good luck to SABS choir! =)

picture updates.

hello, i have some pictures! =)

some very long time ago, mahao, me and weijin went for this funny waltz dinner cause we were bored and we wanted to dress up. xD lol, okay that was only me. mahao was there to support marcus lol. 

i 越来越 dont like to take pictures with tall people. 

=.=

they had a bingo session which is the only entertainment i had all night. xD

i stole a stack of extra bingo papers from the reception table and made wj play with me. childhood memories lol! bingo was like the ultimate sport when i was in peichai lol.

mahao 帅哥. lol, turning LALa. why am i keep typing chinese characters o.O

last thursday was sammie's birthday! we had her bday dinner at this new place called "black pearl". food was sucky ！but the service was awesome and being surrounded by white people in a kuantanese restaurant is just plain weird..

and.. because mr. waleed dar just had to be a bitch and skip school for a week and made sam missed him so much and blar blar blar, we had to go stalk waleed's apartment. oh boy.

oh boy. crazy people do crazy stuff.

kong kong's bread keychain.

crazy cute omg omg omg omg. ahha.

yesterday was flagday's mall day.
went to mega at first but mgs's st johnners practically had the whole place covered so we went to ecm.
ecm was so considerate they set up a little stall for us.
last year when i took ecm, we had to stand outside the building where we dont get any aircond, because big apple bitched abt us to the management.

kong kong and meiphing!

popular's entrance at mega!

our little stall at ecm. 

omg. messy oily st johnner. aahha. 

st johnners camwhoring at sushi king..

i got a feeling st johnners cant resist mirrors when in uniform.. lol. its a thinggg. 

sama pangkat sama muka blur,  wooh.

oh yeah, and this. =D

amin.

aargh,

praying hard that no one books caprice before we fork out a thousand bucks from teacher. praying hard that we can afford estrella too. =x

and who said we're not having IU this year huh.