save the environment peeps. its important

im hurting. i really am. when no ones around, i often find myself crying for no reason in particular. what am i doing to myself. what have you done to me. you probably hate me by now and we most probably are not even friends anymore right nowww. i kinda missed blogging and the blogosphere, but since you dont read and practically no one actually does these days i've made this decision. where are you now? what could you be doing? god i sound geekily sentinemtal omg this is not right. im not drunk. no, havent been drinking, since february to be exact. the month i finally realised you arent gonna be around anymore. and brought a replacement into the miserable life. have been living pretty much as a puppet since then. listening to this oddly really yesterday song on my brother's itunes, chan siu chun's "chui siu jee gak" LOL cantonese acronyms, what dumb lalafied culture. i guess its jsut another of those times of the years where people just feel lost, confused about who are they and what they want. i wonder we'd still get all these weird PERIODs when we're older. i mean, i'm 17, turning 18 in another 3 months. is that young? maybe. there are still so much that i wanna explore. LOVE is just an unnecessary holdback for a person with wild dreams kan? haha, self-comforting dont mind me. music is really a great remedy for broken hearteds. not that my heart is broken, thats too nerdy to admit. =.= wtf. spm will be over about 45 dayyssss! AWESOMEE. she asked me whether im excited for the states. i said im not. im actually not sure at all, im really excited about being there, the place we have been watching in movies and cartoons and drama series and heard songs about. i mean like, AMERICA. but also, i despise flights!!!!!! HATE BEING ON AEROPLANES. and the us is 30 hours of aeroplane away from homeee! darn that dumb brother for being there. i dont talk about this around friends, cos very conscious that they'll think that im tryna show anything off. cos its my 2nd trip abroad this year. uk was 14 hours away it already made me felt like a hell hole. we took emirates, AND I WATCHED ALL THE MOVIES THEY HAD FOR their inflight entertainment schedule LOL. so anyways, i feel better now, after chattering on cyberspace in some unknown dimension HAHAH. sad to think that no one cares about anything anymore.