note to self :

should really start to protect your singing voice. skip late night shiok sendiri-ing in your room already.


sigh.
i thought i had a tough voiceeeeeeeeee. gawd why so weak wann. ugh.

you le meii.

" the thing i miss the most is, waking up next to you"
- simple plan's 'i could wait forever'.



AHAHHAHAHA what the.
kononnya very sentimental like that.
the picture shows.. me and my roommate's stacked up stock of YOU LE MEI.
absolutely heaven. seriously. teh c and nata de coco! AWESOMEST DUET EVERR.
(no we didnt bought it because jay chou was on it. if thats what you guys are thinkingg.)
i miss shopping for youlemei! every single day! HAHA.

bidebaaak!!!!! peter parrrk (aka the guy on youtube that looks like a keegan and yitloong crossbred  hahahahah) and charles wang!
CUTE LIKE CRAZY.
charles wang i mean. heeheeee. whyyy soo seriouss!?



another one. =) charlesss wangggg.
i wonder why are hongkong kids got so much free time to do all these. haha.

and say you love me every waking moment.

my brother is the @!$$^!@@#%% person ever. =.=

our roof is currently (we think la) infested with some weird monster that makes loud noises. i was talking about it to my mum about it at the dinner table. and genius brother said:

" maybe is phantom of the opera lorhh/
 i know why you singing singing there in your room dy lah
your room got big mirror rightt?! you carefully the mirror suddenly open and phantom come bring you down to his dungeon hiding place"


wtffffffff?

footballlll!

today was the last dayy of our secondary school life to watch a football match in school, to me lah, cos im graduating this year! (yes yes yes yessssssssss happy giler) we have this every year, but only this year everyone became so semangated and suddenly everyone is having some sort of school spirit (that we dont usually see in sabs students and no one from our school admits to have, haha). we won 2nd place! i dont know who is in our school's team, i know our goalkeeper is that fair malay dude that used to be in the same class as me in form2 and 3, but sadly only that la. but im proud of em! practially because i screamed my lungs out for them from the top block and they were quite good. (i dont know la i simply say wan, i dont even watch football) =.= we went out during english and biology period! ahhah midkor was being ultra nice today, and the new biology replacement teacher for our deaaaaaaar pn.hapizah (not trying to be sarcastic, i do like her) who just had a baby girl doesnt mind us screaming cheering and creating a whole loadsa disturbance and noise as long as we're outside the class, heehee.. and she didnt even take the time to introduce herself because i think she knows that we wont be interested in her name at thaat moment.

sabs students, very funny, only during our annual beach run (deng! the new pengetua just HAD to messup THIS PARTICULAR TRADITION that i like the most), sports day and if compeitions are held in school we will suddenly have this school spirit thingy. other times, we kutuk our school so much and we dont show love for school at all, funny. dont get me wrong, i sincerely do not like my school (for real, nots just norma masyarakat), and i am very (VERYYYY) excited to graduate. WAHAHAHAHA. (paying another tribute to lala-fied english, dont mind me alright.)

valentines is coming! THE ONLY DAY IN THE YEAR I WILL TRY MY BEST NOT TO HATE HAPPY COUPLES. lonely laaaaaaaaaa. (*sings: ji mo nan naii.. oooh.*) so single right now.

everyonee was outside of class! (top floor best view! posh people only can afford to watch from here wan k. lol. )

field! looks so nice from far. (and from far only it'll look good heeheee)
the selonggok the people are watching ball too, under hot sun and no shade! (cheapest tickets laa)

downstairs people. pinpin and huishun hahaha.

heart damn pain. maybe should have just ate everything in and not agree for a talk with you that is absolutely not productive at all and end up with tears. maybe i should have just stop my fucking lips from blabbering and not show my emtions and not spilling my heart out to anyone. i wished to just turn back time and mute everything so that i wont hear anything that hurts. it stings, like salt on an open wound. it hurts, like a rock on my chest, compressing to an extent i cant seem to breath. what was i thinking, i knew it was going to cost us our friendship, why did i say it. now that our eyes cant even bring themselves to meet and our mouth cant seem to mutter a word to each other, i hope to at least see you happy. im gonna miss having you in my life, going out and crapping and doing crazy stuff together, but i give it all up to time. i'll get to used to us not talking. i'll get used to the coldness between us. i'll get used to not being linked together by other people. i'll get used to a life without you. i'll get used to it. in the meantime, im gonna find myself a new hangout gang.

NOTHING IS GONNA BE THE SAME AGAIN.

NO MATTER HOW HARD WE TRY. WE AREN'T GOING BACK WHAT WE USE TO BE AND WE'RE NOT GONNA HAVE WE HAD, 

I AM OKAY.

I JUST NEED SOME TIME. 

TO DIGEST AND ABSORB.

AND I MISS HAVING YOU IN MY LIFE.