katsu. <3

hello people. it has been a loong week. was supposed to relax and study abit, but plans fell apart when we got a call from my aunt, my grandpa was very sick and is struggling to breathe and stuff, he was having breakfast and all of a sudden he wasn't able to breathe normally, he was sweating and all, it had been very dificult i guess. he was rushed to the hospital, with my aunt by his side, my aunt was kinda hysterical, she rang us up and we rushed back. my mum was freaked out.

when we got there the doctor said that hes not gonna make it, simply because hes old. i couldn't take it, staying in the hospital ward, the smell of the medicine was killing me. my big aunt was crying, my mum was crying, i was crying, my cousins were crying.. damn it was intensed. the doctor asked whether we wanted them to perform cpr on him if anything bad happens, and the adults agreed on not to. well i guess its best choice, if i were 80 years old, having 6 children by by death bed, so many healthy grandchildren and great grandchildren, i wouldn't want people to press my chest over and over again and shock me with those scary thangs you see on tv. my christian aunt had a card saying "prayer for the sick", praying for him. my big aunt made us sing amitabha.. when he went we all knelt down by his bed, the doctor knelt down too.

it was a peaceful departure.
then we had this traditional chinese funeral lorh. goodnes.. when i die, im gonna donate my body to a medical university. if they dont want my body, just incinerate me lah. i dont want my children to go through all the mafan stuff. .. . i think its stupid. its just a very elaborate, pointless process. burning money paper, and the fire cannot go off wtf. hahahaha. and guess what i discovered, the paper car we burnt for my grandpa, is made of strips of "happy wedding" and "happy birthday" low quality wrapping paper. ?! hahaha. chinese supersition is the freakiest thing ever.. my mum made me not to look when they nailed the coffin and when they moved the coffin into the minivan. i wanted to, but i was scared la. if you watched a pang brothers' horror movie before you would know. chinese supersition have its own way, so, im 16, i dont wanna have my third eye opened. heh. i lut.

so uhm,
i got back 2 days ago.

went out 2 days straight.
karaoke-ed hard for 3 hours at boss's place. wooh. awesome-ness..
went out with primary school friends yesterday. AND YES, i still effing hate JR. JUST RELAX SUCKS! ugh.




the greatest chinese song of all times. amei rocks. have been listening to all those soulful songs. love songs suck. hahaha.