for screaming out loud, why am i doing this.

dear you,

first of all thank you a . fantasy or reality, i dont really give a shit anymore. in a blink of the eye, it has been one whole year, i didnt think i'd last that long. haha. i dont even wanna think what we have. i dont wanna think whether you're being real anot. its really confusing at times, but who cares. im gonna do what i wanna do, because im not getting a second chance, ever. and thanks for being all cooperative and play along this little fantasy i've set up for myself. blar. i got so much to say but i dont think i can put em all down in words.